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hey there friends.

had a super horrible night at work that i can't even talk about because it was so bad. i am exhausted right now and have a headache that just won't go away.

so, i don't want to talk about it. i'm calming down now, and talking about it will just get me upset again.

and also, i'm tired. and i'm going to bed very soon. like, probably even before 1:30am.

i just wanted to let you that i am going to Providence, RI today for a Sister Weekend with kara. i am in desperate need to get away from this house. i'll be back on sunday evening sometime. and i probably won't be doing much blogging while i'm away.

so, i wanted to give you a heads up.

i hope you all have a great weekend! doing anything fun and special??

i love you all. miss everybody. one week is over. let's hope next week brings some happy.



<3,
julie

"well i used to know a girl, and i could have sworn, that her name was Veronica."

emotions are running high in the Julie/Ruby Tuesday household tonight. Ruby opted to sleep through the final episode of Veronica Mars. i don't think she's as affected by the ending as i am.

ok. so, pretty much immediately after watching the series finale of Veronica Mars, i wished i had never started it to begin with. WHAT kind of an ending was that?!?!?! for serious!!!!! did they want you to tear your hair out after watching?!?! HOW are we supposed to know what happens?!?!?

soooooooooooo many loose ends. aw man. i can't believe i don't know right now if Keith won the election.

AT LEAST they had that episode revolving what everyone will be doing over the summer.

but Veronica and Logan?!?!? he loves her!!!!

oh, i'm so broken about this.

i feel like i should send Kristen Bell a twitter. but i don't think i'm cool enough.

aw man i am putting all my votes in for the Veronica Mars movie. how come this isn't happening right now????

but. in any case, i am starting Season 1 with Kara this weekend. we have 3 intense Sister Weekend days to watch season 1. we can do it. Kara and i watched the first two seasons of Big Love in like, two days. THAT was intense.

and i watched three seasons of Heroes in like, three weeks. and also that time my third year of college where i watched like, 80 Lost episodes in less than a month.

enough. i can't talk about it anymore.

so, busy overnight last night. baby was up like, four times. i slept a lot. went to bed around 2:45am. slept until 3:30am. to bed at 4:30. slept until 6:30. up until 7:30. back to bed. set my alarm for 1pm. woke up at 2:30pm.

got up. had cereal. washed my hair. got dressed. to work i went!

i walk into the staff office and this is the first thing i hear, "and she threw the glass against the wall and it shattered everywhere."

at that moment, i wanted to walk right back out the door, go back upstairs, get back into bed and pull the covers so far over my head that nobody would ever find me.

but, i didn't. and our fun-filled night began. it wasn't actually that bad. it's nice when there are other staff around to quick-vent to.

and, no baby monitoring tonight, so it's like vacation!!!

i realize that today is technically 12 november. but, i haven't slept yet, so for me, it's still 11 november. which means:

happy birthday lin!

lin and i used to stand next to each other in chorus at hampshire college. we were also airport lounge monitors together. they were good times. and then lin gave me her sweater when she graduated. she was a year ahead of me. and one day in chorus she was wearing this really pretty yellow cardigan with sparkly buttons. and i said,

JULIE: I like your sweater!
LIN: You can have it.
JULIE: What?
LIN: If I graduate, you can have this sweater.

and that's pretty much the whole story. Lin graduated. and then when i returned to hampshire the next fall, there was a package waiting for me in my mailbx. and in it, was the sweater!

wow. what a great story. really. and today, in honor of her birthday, i wore the sweater. for serious. it's super comfy. i wore it a couple weeks ago too.

also today:

happy birthday leonardo dicaprio.

oh, what a beautiful man. i thought about him a lot today.

in other news: i bought some new lullabys tonight. since my itunes is working, i took advantage. my fave is the lullaby version of Killer Queen. it's so cute!!! also, Hotel California. Don't Panic, by Coldplay. yeah. it's awesome. the first 'lullaby renditions' cd that i produce will be Lullaby Renditions of the Jonas Brothers. it's gonna be great.

also tonight at work, i rocked a stuffed pink baby bunny to sleep. first me and the toddler rocked her in the bouncy seat. and we buckled her in too, don't worry. but then she needed to be picked up. first, the toddler gave her a hug and a kiss. and then she gave her to me. so, i rocked her back to sleep and put her back in the seat. it was all very cute.

and then i fed the toddler her supper.

know what is lame???? that this is a wednesday holiday. what is the deal?? for realz. i'm sorry, but it's lame. it screws up the postal system!!!!!! come on! enough with these holidays!!!!

when i am president.......

no, i'm just kidding. i won't bore you with another edition of "when julie is president." we know, we know. drive thru post offices. alphabetized grocery stores. yep.

also, here's something. so, on tuesday when i had to go out and do errands in the early morning, i noticed something. this was like, between 11am and 12:30pm. i noticed that people are not very good drivers. like, it was bad enough that i noticed it. and i thought, "it's never like this during julie hours!" like, past 4pm when it's okay for me to leave the house.

i hate going places before like, 4pm. serious. okay, 3pm. it's too bright. too many people. too sunny. too much traffic.

anyways, i had like, a million people pull out in front of me, but WAY too close. it happened like, 4 times. and every person i was behind didn't use their turn signal. it was just a mess.

ok. it's 3:27am. i think i'll go to bed now. or, soon. with my new lullaby music. i've been playing it all night while i sleep for the past week or so, and, i'm gonna be honest - i think i sleep better. or, i think i get into more of a deep sleep.

when i am working, but also sleeping, i never sleep as good. even if i'm asleep, it's like, i'm still awake. but, i've noticed that i have a more peaceful sleep with the lullabys.

it doesn't really make sense that people play lullaby music for their babies. when babies are little they are not used to lullaby music. they are used to white noise as loud as a vacuum cleaner. that's why people can buy those cd's of like, household appliance noises. like, the blender. the car running. the vacuum. that's what babies like!

julie's like lullabys. i don't think there's anything wrong with that.

ok. i have to run down to the office before i go to sleep. i just remembered this. ugh. i don't want to. but i have to.

i still don't understand why my computer programs are working again. anybody have any idea? really, i'll take any idea. because i have none.

well then. i hope everyone has a beautiful thursday. there's a frost outside right now. brrr. stay warm. stay cool. stay golden, ponyboy.


But she used to have a carefree mind of her own
with a devilish look in her eye
saying, 'you can call me anything you like
but my name is Veronica.'

<3

"Is this the part where you turn me into a vampire?"

another great quote to title an entry!!! this one perhaps less inspiring than the last. tonight's quote comes to us from Veronica Mars.

i received a disc of VM in the mail today. i did not realize that it was the last disc of the series until much later. i have one episode left. if you could only see what i'm feeling inside. you would probably freak out. it's a lot of sad emotions right here.

although, there's a particularly gorgeous photo of Dick Casablancas on the dvd menu which i am thoroughly enjoying. these past few episodes were tough for Dick. i am kind of worried.

also, i was looking through season 1 of Veronica Mars and find it totally creepy that the last episode of season 1 is called, Leave It To Beaver. it means nothing if you haven't watched the show. but, i am really creeped out by that. and STILL cannot believe the ending of season 2.

anyways. i plan to watch the last episode tomorrow. wednesday. goodbye my friends. i will miss them dearly. i will miss the Veronica/Eli relationship. at first i was so scared of Eli, but he turned out to be a good guy.

anyways. today was a busy, hectic day. i did not get a lot of sleep last night. had to get up early. staff meeting was okay. then we had a baby shower. i had to run around and do errands for the baby shower. and then i finally came home and collapsed.

slept until 9:50pm. woke up. started work alllll over.

currently it's 1:55am. after i finish this i'm going to bed. i'm tired.

but!!!!! starting at 8am wednesday morning, i'm on another mini-vacation.

vacation = still working, just not as intensely.

meaning, i won't have to get up in the night with the baby. this will make a huge difference on my life. i am so excited i really cannot even describe it to you.

ALSO, something totally weird happened today. my computer started working. like, all my programs. it was weird. i turned on my computer this evening and for some reason thought, "eh, what the heck, i'll just give iTunes a shot." and it took a while and i thought to myself, "whoa, is this going to work??"

AND IT WORKED!!!!! and then i tried microsoft office - WORKED. paint program - WORKED. double click on the time? CALENDAR POPS UP. it's awesome.

i have absolutely no idea what caused it to start working again. i'm a tad suspicious of it all. like, for a couple weeks i didn't have the "program opening thing" anymore, but now i do? where was it? on vaca? program opener road trip?

anyways. i hope it stays. maybe it thought i was taking it for granted and was upset that i keep thinking of getting a Mac every couple seconds. so, it wanted to make me jealous.

whatever it was, i'm glad it's back. welcome back, programs!

also. i don't know if you know this, but there is a funeral home at the end of my street. like, i can see it from my window. and lately, i can't really stop thinking about it. one day last week they were outside in the driveway washing the hearse.

now, i don't know if you know anything about me, but i hate seeing hearses. they freak me out. they have a blue one. AND a hearse mini-van. i didn't know it existed, but it does.

and so tonight i was googling the funeral home and found their website and discovered that they do cremations. right in the house. on my street. this really freaked me out. it also made me worry about the possible fire hazard. if something went wrong, that would suck.

some of the guys who work at the funeral home are nice looking guys. because i see them outside all the time.

ugh. but the whole thing just makes me feel unsettled.

tonight at the baby shower we talked about possible ghosts that inhabit this house. the director of our program told everyone that the trick to make a ghost leave is to say very firmly, "spirit depart!" apparently that has worked for him in the past.

he also told us that this house was built in 1860. and it was a major farm house in the area. and alllllll that was around this house were fields. 1860!! that's a loooong time ago.

i wonder what kind of people lived in this house. well, farmers, obvi. but like. who? which rooms did they sleep in?


ok. enough wondering for one night. time for bed. working tomorrow 3:30-10pm.

have a great mid-week day. i'll talk to everyone later :)


<3!

"Today if you are frightened, instead become inspired."

you may think that i took that quote from a college graduation speech. kind of sounds like one. but no! wanna know where it came from?? Grey's Anatomy. yep. a few weeks ago. best episode of Grey's in a while.

this guy who worked at the hospital had this super bad tumor on his spinal cord. like, all intertwining. and the Chief told Patrick Dempsey that he couldn't do the surgery because it was too risky and the tumor seemed inoperable. but the patient convinced Patrick Dempsey to do the surgery! and the title of this post is taken from a line the patient said to him right before being put under the anesthesia.

it was such a good episode! all the doctor's were working together to try and figure it out. it was like, a miracle surgery. like a mystery about how to start. McDreamy spent the first 10 hours just staring into the guy's spine, trying to decide where to make the first cut!!! HARDCORE!!!!

and then he went back the next day, behind the Chief's direction, and performed the rest of the surgery. and the very last cut he made was like a total gamble. he could have either saved the guy's life and the surgery would be a success, or he could have paralyzed the guy.

MAN IT WAS SO GOOD!!!!!

i want to be like that!!!! i want to go behind people's backs and do things that everybody thinks i can't do!!!!!! IIIIIIIIII want to be a neurosurgeon!!!!!

McDreamy is like everything i want to be. he's like a super awesome, famous surgeon that people come from all over the world to have him operate on them. i want to be that cool!!!

man i wish i had enough motivation to go to medical school.

once i invent the power to be able to know everything about whatever you want, i think the first thing i will automatically learn about is neurosurgery.

the second might be meteorology.

i really like science. even though i think i am way more of a creative person than a scientific person, man, i love science. that is one thing i wish i had appreciated more in high school. slash school in general.

i think i actually made pretty good use of science in college.

- forensic anthropology
- astronomy
- astronomy and public policy
- paranormal and supernatural phenomenons
- music, brain, and development

were those all my science classes? and then me and Jenny totes rocked Day in the Lab/Girl's Day in the Lab.

anyways.


it's 1.26am. my goal sleep time was 1am. but now i'm not tired anymore. i was downstairs working from like, 9:45 to 11:45.

as my co-worker Sue was filling me in on everything that had happened during the day, as she was getting ready to go home for the night, all i could think of was, "they're just going to leave me here alone to deal with all of this?" like, aaaalllllllllll the crap from throughout the day which all the other staff have been dealing with together, is now MY responsibility.

yeah, that was a sucky feeling. i'm getting a break, though. dear wednesday night: please, feel free to come as fast as you want. love, julie.

my total number of hours worked these past two weeks has dropped!!!!!!! so, the two weeks before these last two weeks, it was 191 hours worked. but tonight when i calculated for the past two weeks, i had only worked 135 hours.

anyways.

apparently one of the staff here who works weekends had the swine flu. good ol' H1N1. now everyone is freaking out. apparently like, tons of kids in the schools up here have been sick. i had no idea! i guess if i don't get it, i'll be pretty shocked. my immune system is down right now. my body is doing everything it can to try and get me to take out my earring. it's like, ''how could you go and pierce your ear?!?!! you went 23 years without a piercing!!!!"

yeah, this earring situation is not going well. despite what my mom tells me, i think my ear is turning black. i've been cleaning it with kosher salt water a bunch of times. and then when the salt water dries it leaves my ear all rough and salty and crusty.

pretty soon i'm gonna look like ol' Bootstrap Bill.

ol'. i just used that in the paragraph above, describing H1Ni. i apologize. i'll try not to use it again.

Bootstrap Bill Turner. remember how his face just leaked salt water? ooooo best makeup ever. slash CGI.

SO. oh, speaking of our ol' friend H1N1......Taylor from Rooney had the swine flu. i learnt this while listening to a voicemail left by Robert Schwartzman. and he was just giving a normal band update, and then said that Taylor had swine flu, but that he was feeling better. Taylor is the one who used to date Mischa Barton! the lead guitarist for Rooney. who will be at Wellesley College TONIGHT, 10 november, 2009.

oh you ladies of wellesley, how jealous am i?? how jealous i am. on the day before Leo DiCaprio's birthday, you have to go and schedule a "students only" Rooney show. what gives?

i should probably clarify a little when i said that Robert left a voicemail with a band update. man, i really wish i didn't have to clarify, ya know? i wish we could all just believe that he would call and leave a message on my telephone. but no. a clarification is in order.

so, Rooney is on this thing called SayNow. they have like, a band telephone number and you can call the number, leave a message, and they will call back on a number and everyone can listen to it. like a universal answering machine. universal is the wrong word. COMMUNAL. a communal answering machine. and so i was listening to some of their most recent messages. and that's how i found out.

i have to call people back tonight. kerianne and aliya i will call you back.

so, last night i fell asleep with my lullaby music on. i know, i shouldn't have told you that. YEAH OKAY, it's baby music. music for babies to sleep to. well, i like it. it's calm and soothing. and while i was laying in bed i thought to myself, there should be a lullaby version of every song.

and then i thought of the name of the company that would turn every song into a lullaby song. but now i can't think of the company name. CRAP. ugh what was the name??? aw man. nothing. nada. niente.

lullaby nation? lullaby the world? hmmm.

that would be a great job.
"oh, what do you do?"
"i record lullabys all day."

man. awesome. you would just never wake up. everything would just be so peaceful and quiet. and the recording studio could double as a daycare.

omg who wants to start a lullaby band?!?

wow, the lullaby version of Smells Like Teen Spirit is pretty freaky. as someone said in the comments section, "i think it would work great if you wanted your baby to become a supervillain."

i guess that's what Sylar listened to as a baby. i listened to lullaby renditions of Johnny Cash songs on the airplane over to Ireland. but it didn't work. i didn't fall asleep.

Octopus's Garden is also really good. and it has little bubbling sounds too.

ok. 2am. i'm getting tired now listening to this music. and i have to get up early, man. ugh. my goal is to leave my house at 11am. tres horrible.

ok. hope you all are having a wonderful tuesday. whatever time it is. wherever you are. whatever you are doing.

alright. i'll talk to you later. goodnight and farewell for now.


lovelovelove.

sleepy jackson

i am sleepy right now, and i thought, 'what awesome sleepy title could i title a blog post?' and then i immediately thought 'sleepy jackson.' and then i thought, 'what is sleepy jackson? where have i heard it before?' and then thought pretty hard about it. and then realized that it's a band from Australia and Ben Lee mentions them in a lyric to Catch My Disease.

yep. that's the awesome 'hook' story to get you to keep reading. did it work?

anyways.

again, i am sleepy right now. went to bed last night around 3am. slept until 4am. woken up by the phone. had to make a trip downstairs which i really didn't want to do. then came back upstairs and slept until 5am. then had to go downstairs for a baby feeding. came back upstairs around 6:30am. slept until 7:30am. the phone rang. had to get up and answer it. then went back to sleep. the phone rang AGAIN at 7:57am. had to get up and answer it. and this one was horrible because i actually had to go downstairs and leave a message. UGH. i did not want to do that.

and then i had a good sleep from 8:10am until around 1:30pm. man, i was really comfortable.

watched The Marc Pease Experience last night before bed. that was the Jason Schwartzman movie i watched. i had it from Netflix. i was really comfortable on my couch watching it. it was an okay movie. some parts were funny. Jason had this big song and dance number at the end which ruled. it was about this guy, who 8 years after high school, is trying to get his high school acapella group a recording deal. so, he sings in the acapella group too. and then at the very end of the movie, Jason is playing piano and singing. it was great. no Coconut Records songs. but other songs. good stuff.

then this afternoon i went downstairs and helped with a belly cast. like, strips of plaster stuff over pregnant belly. the other Julie who works here asked if i would help her. she said after we were done, 'we make a good team.' that was nice. i think she is awesome. she does such amazing work.

then i came back upstairs and watched Ewan McGregor be interviewed on Craig Ferguson. they are the best because they are so funny together. they just go on talking about Scottish things and being extremely attractive. it doesn't get much better.

then i watched J. Schwartz on Jimmy Kimmel from like, two weeks ago. he was really funny. and looked smokin in a brown suit. talked about slicing his finger open while making yam fries. funny story.

and then i thought, 'okay, i gotta go out and run an errand.' so, i got all dressed. did my hair. some makeup. got my jacket on. put my ipod in my purse to take in the car. and then sat down to write a list so i wouldn't forget to buy anything. and as i was writing the list i thought, 'man, i just do not want to go out and do anything.'

and so i got back in my sweats. i knew i needed to go out in the morning before staff meeting anyways, so i'm just going to do everything then. which will be even more horrible because it will be early. but, whatev.

so, i got on the couch and watched a Private Practice.

and i watched a Veronica Mars this afternoon. and just after i complained about Veronica and Piz not hooking up - they hooked up! spoiler! they are cute together. i know it won't last long, because i'm assuming Veronica ultimately ends up with Logan, because clearly they're meant to be. but, for now, she can make out with Piz. he's hott.

and man. i am tired. even after my long night of sleep last night. well, i guess between like, 3am and 8am i was woken up every hour. and i didn't sleep between 5am and 6:30am.

i think i am going to force myself to bed early tonight. especially since i have to wake up early tomorrow. the baby was really good last night. hopefully he'll be the same tonight.

ok. i have like, an hour before i start work. i have to fill out my timecard.

have a good night. perhaps i'll talk to you later. but not too later because i'm forcing myself to sleep early. remember? i can't forget to do that.



ok! love.

oh my god i want to scream

i just had the most painful couple hours. COUPLE HOURS.

i heard the girls talking to each other on the monitor. i told them they could stay up until 10 o'clock to watch this murder crime show. i heard them talking at like, quarter to 11. and i thought, 'aw man, i have to go downstairs and be authoritative.'

so, i went downstairs. IMMEDIATELY as i walk in the door to the second floor all three girls come at me with explanations as to why they're up, they want pizza, they are laughing, they are loud, they are throwing things at each other, dropping the f-bomb every other word, they're running around, they are acting like five year olds.

i just stood there for a moment. wishing, wishing, wishing that i had never come downstairs. i had such a good day and in one minute it turned to crap.

i couldn't even speak they were annoying me so much. finally one of them said, "uh oh, julie's mad."

we had a donation of five boxes of pizza tonight and they all wanted to go downstairs and get a slice.

"we were just up here waiting for you to come down so we could go!!"
i said, "no, you should have called me to get permission to stay up."
"but you were going to come down eventually!"
"right, eventually. but i had said 10 o'clock."

i went downstairs with them. their collective age had dropped from five to two.

i finally said, "look, you guys need to calm down, because i'm getting really annoyed."

they ate their pizza. i sent them to their rooms. and then i had to go with the new mom to feed the baby.

wow. just, i wanted to scream. the whole time.

this is going to be a long effing week.

now, i'm going to curl up on the couch and watch a Jason Schwartzman movie. tonight calls for some schwartzman. not much could make me smile right now. but jason always seems to do the trick. Fantastic Mr. Fox opens soon. i'm happy about that. actually, i'm really freaking excited. me and kara are going. Meryl AND Jason!!!!

ok. i'm feeling better already. Miley just came on my iPod. that probably helps.

tonight my iPod froze up. it hadn't done that in a long time. i was bummed. and my slipper ripped. i am really bummed about that.

but! i watched some of saturday's SNL with Taylor Swift, and she sang a song during her opening monologue, and in her song she mentioned Joe Jonas. and how he broke up with her over the phone. i was really excited about that. not that he broke up with her, but that she mentioned him.

anyways. i'm getting tense again.

let me just say - i slept soooooo freaking good this weekend. friday and saturday nights. i was OUT. no interruptions. so sleeping with a baby monitor in my bed. no waking up to someone yelling, "JULIE!!!!"

but tonight it begins again. okay. i'm gonna go.

are Veronica and Piz gonna hook up or not? watching him on VM made me remember that i hadn't watched any Private Practice yet this season. so, i was all over that on friday. good stuff.

ok. have a good night. and a good start to your week. i'll talk to you later.


night.