CLIFTON PARK, here we come

oh wait! we're already here!!!!!!!!!

actually, we've already come and gone. now we're in Latham, NY. staying at the Super 8. i'm here with my new friend Ryan. she's very cool and made totes delish cookies for both me AND for Crash Kings.

today was a hectic, stressful day that turned out to be a great day.

- went to bed around 2am.
- couldn't fall asleep
- phone call woke me up at 7am
- alarm woke me up at 8am
- another phone call woke me up at 8:15am

"ok, maybe i should get up."

- then i went down to work. i ended up being down in the office from about 8:30 to 11ish.

OH WAIT. i haven't talked to you since thursday afternoon. no, friday afternoon.

i'll catch you up.

so, the hospital went fine. i had planned to go run errands after i left the hospital, but instead, i needed to go back to the house and make some phone calls.

those "some" phone calls turned into a billion phone calls. a billion frantic phone calls and message leaving to people. it was hectic and stressful. i ended up being in the office from 7:22 until like, 10pm.

THEN i went out to the Jake's 'vacuum your car' place and vacuumed my car. i was kind of excited about this but also kind of dreading it. but, it needed to be done. so i took the huge vacuum and vacuumed the car. it came out alright.

it was freezing outside. i couldn't feel my hands by the end of it. why are the underside of car mats so sharp?? it's not like they stick to the car any better.

then i went to walgreens. i had wanted to go to wal-mart, but now they were closed. and walgreens is 24 hours. i bought eye drops and cold medicine.

then i came home and watched The Office. jim and pam had their baby on the same day that our resident had her baby! aw, what a great episode.

THEN, i went to bed.

ok, up to speed.

now, it's saturday morning and i'm in the staff office again making all kinds of frantic phone calls. from 8:30am to 11ish am. i was chatting with courtney online the whole time which was cool and nice.

then i went upstairs and started to get ready to GO ON THE CRASH KINGS ROADTRIP WEEKEND. holy crap i was so excited.

so, i leave my house around 2pm. head to Needham, MA to pick up my new Crash Kings BFF.

THEN, we headed west on the Pike towards NEW YORK!!!

arrived in Clifton Park just after 8pm.

the scary band Owl (not to be confused with the super cute band, Owl City) was just coming on. they all look like the guys in Nickelback. with really long hair. and they screamed a lot.

but! we both kind of decided to grab a spot in the back of the crowd and we walk up and are standing there for a moment and then we realize we are standing right next to Mike and Tony of CRASH KINGS.

we both look at each other and have a mini freak out session.

wow. Mike looks so soft. every time i see Mike in person, all i want to do is touch him. he looks so soft. i just want to hug him.

so then we kind of talk to Tony for a minute. he is beautiful.

then Owl stopped playing and Crash Kings started setting up. they brought a piano onstage!!! HOTTTTTTTT.

it was very foggy in this place. it was called Northern Lights. it's this giant music/night club in this plaza strip mall sandwiched in between a dollar store and a church. it was very strange.

so then Crash Kings started. SO GOOD. omg. i actually saw Jason get on stage and take off his shoes. that was exciting. i was pretty much right in front of Mike. Tony was across the stage, but i could barely see him because of all the fog. for realz! so foggy!

anyways - they rocked. so hard. they played Carry On and i got it all on video. i didn't take very many pictures because i was so concentrated on rocking. NOBODY else was! so we had to be the hardcore fans. no prob.

EVERYBODY started rocking during Mountain Man.

and then it was over! too short. AND - it was maddening because JET took FOREVER to get onstage. seriously. FOREVER. like, maybe 20 minutes. so, Crash Kings should have played longer. much longer.

but holy man - JET. they rocked the house. the people loved them. i loved them. i was super dancing through every song. they are so cute. and they wore such tight pants. and they are from austrailia. and two of them are brothers. i am really excited to have them on the Bro Tour 2011.

i will take JET videos and pictures either at the show sunday night or tuesday night.

YEAH. i still have two more shows!!!!!! how exciting is this adventure?!?!?!

i really liked JET. i think you're supposed to write their name in all caps. because they are exciting like that.

they didn't set up their own stuff on stage, though. i guess they're more famous than i thought. there was this little kid like, maybe 8 years old in front of me. and he was with his parents. and he knew like, every word to every song. it was incredible.

yeah, i really liked them. they fit really well with Crash Kings. in terms of rocking. and music style.

AH. what a great night.

and my new friend Ryan said that she was hanging around the back again while JET was taking forever to start, and she started talking to Tony again. and they talked for like, 10 minutes.

AND AND AND. he was super excited that we were seeing three of their shows as an opening band. he said he really appreciated that we were coming out to the shows.

AND THEN HE SAID, "see you tomorrow!"

which basically means, "let's all make out tomorrow!"

yeah. i'm pretty sure that's what he meant.

oh boy. i am excited.

so tomorrow (sunday 7 march) we're driving to new jersey. for more Crash Kings/JET wonderfulness.

we're going to plan to be at the venue early. ya know, to either jam with the band. or help them sound check. or pick out outfits for the show. any of those would work.

i'm really excited to see JET again. yeah, they rocked.

and then after the show sunday night we'll drive back to boston. and then i'll drive to maine. and then back to boston on tuesday!!!!!!!

ok. i'm getting tired. we just watched Ryan's videos from the show. she has the amazing power of taking great Tony videos. i am bad at videos because i can't stop dancing and singing. i can't stop the rock!

we were just looking through photos of Crash Kings on facebook. TONY. WEARING. GLASSES. yeah, i had a mini crazy moment. oh wow.

OK. how happy am i that i am away from Lebanon, NH and i'm on the Crash Kings Roadtrip Weekend? I AM SO HAPPY.

after this seriously bad week at work, this is just what i need. and i actually thought that tonight while rocking out. it was every opposite feeling from all week. same intensity, only on the good side.

OK. now i might go to sleep. lots of driving tomorrow. my car did well up until the very end. like, from the concert to the hotel. i started to worry. it got much louder. and stopped shifting gears. and now the heat makes this weird 'flicking' noise. and it's screechy. just overall making noises it's not supposed to.

but, we had a talk before i left NH this morning. i said, "dear car, i know you are not feeling well and will not last long after this. but you have never failed me. please just hold on a couple more days." and then i played it some Crash Kings to let it know what it was holding out for. and it ran really well all the way over to NY.

ok. now i might go to sleep.

TODAY!!!!!!! IS EMILY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!! happy birthday emily! dear friend. i miss you and love you!!!!!!! we will see each other soon. promise.

AND - happy academy awards day.

folks, i will not be watching it live this year. the first year in 12 years? i think so. actually, no. the year Moulin Rouge was nominated i had a dance competition and couldn't watch either. that was lame.

but this year, i am willingly not watching in order to attend the concert. and i am happy about my decision. excited, in fact. yes, i am sad a little.

i predict:

- THE HURT LOCKER - will win most categories

i don't think i can finish watching that movie. it was good and all, but with the way things are going at work, after a long, stressful, anger filled day, i don't want to sit on the couch and wonder if the guy on the screen is about to be blown up. it's just not something i want to see or deal with.

The O.C.? yes please. keep 'em coming, Netflix.

AND, i am rooting for Fantastic Mr. Fox ALL THE WAY.

ok maybe i'm more sad than i thought.

no. don't think about it. i'll be rocking out instead.

i think i might wear my hair in a low, side ponytail. i don't know why that is the look i am envisioning.

OK. for real? now will i go to bed??? ummm. maybe, actually.

it's 2:07am. Maine time!!!! get it???

Ryan and i were REALLY, REALLY hoping that the band was staying at our hotel and that we would run into them late night at the ice machine in their pajamas. yeah, we discussed this in the car. it was a meaningful conversation.

and when she was detailing her conversation with Tony for me i said, "please say he invited us out to dinner with them." unfortunately, that hasn't happened YET.

ok, so the bass player in JET looks like Ned from Rooney. and the piano player in JET reminded me of Matt Winter (formerly) of the band Rooney. :( but the bass player totally looked like Ned. and he had a cute little haircut. they were all cuties.

i am a JET fan! and after this adventure i will have seen them three times!!! we will all be bff.

OK. now i think i will go to sleep. because now i'm really tired.

i hope you're having a great weekend. talk to you again soon. probably from Maine. or, any spot we get wi-fi in tomorrow.

ok! great!!!! love you!! goodnight!!!! good morning!!!! good afternoon!!!!!



<3

chilly

AH i'm cold.

just got back inside after cleaning out my car. cleaning out all the junk. at first it was fun, because i was listening to good music and getting stuff done. but then it just ended up being a bummer. i guess because, when it comes down to it, i like the car. and i'll be sad to see it go.

i still had bags of stuff in my trunk from when i moved out of Hampshire. i found all my Day in the Lab stuff. that i did with jenny. that was fun.

found about 100 cd's. MAN i burned a lot of cd's. alll kinds of different mixes.

AND i found 5 euro!! that was pretty exciting.

so tonight, here is my plan:

- be at the hospital from 5-7pm
- go do some errands at wal-mart. yuck.
- go to the Jake's car vacuum place to vacuum out the car

that sounds like a pretty good plan.

oohhhhhh i don't know. i guess i'm kind of bummed out right now.

and cold. it's pretty cold out.

last night i washed all my flannel sheets and re-fluffed my bed up. oooooo it was sooo nice sleeping last night.

ok. i think i'll take a quick shower. and then i have to go.

OK. have a good day. i'll talk to you later.


<3

perspective:

this is a PS to the entry below this one....

remember last year when i had the stomach flu? and i was totally miserable for like, four days? and i had also those crazy fever dreams. and couldn't eat, couldn't sleep? total bad.

well, that was THIS WEEK, only LAST YEAR.

and last night, after coming back upstairs from all the bad, i actually thought, "would i actually feel better if i had the stomach flu?"

and it took me a while to think about it.

and ultimately, i think no. i don't think i would rather have the stomach flu. but, the fact that i thought about it is a little insight into this bad week.


and that is all.

with 14 arms we'll execute the point

i have my music turned up really loud because i'm the only person in the house right now.

remember when i bought my new speakers? yeah, i like them.

so why am i alone, you ask? well, because there are no residents in the house. last night we had two, and now we temporarily have zero. and that means i'm alone in the big house.

Caretaker Julie. that's what i like to think.

anyways. i believe when i last talked to you i was super optimistic that my wednesday night at work would go well. ah yes, i fondly remember the time before my wednesday night at work.

actually, NO, i DON'T fondly remember that time because wednesday was a crap day. let me fill you in on what happened to my car....


I am sitting in the car place. My car is in the garage part for maybe like, ten minutes. Maybe not even ten minutes. I suppose just long enough for them to run the scan test which cost me $48.

CAR GUY: (comes out of the back room) Well, I don't have good news.
JULIE: Aw...
CAR GUY: Actually....I have very, very bad news.
JULIE: ....Ok....
CAR GUY: So, the car's not going to pass inspection...
JULIE: ....Ok....
CAR GUY: And it's going to be about $2,000 worth of work until it does pass.
JULIE: .....Umm......what?
CAR GUY: Yeah, the scan gave us a bunch of problem codes....some of them we don't even know what they are. You'd have to talk to the manufacturer. It's mainly the transmission.
JULIE: I need a new one...
CAR GUY: Yeah you do.
JULIE: (should i laugh or cry? laugh or cry? laugh or cry?)
CAR GUY: We can give you a 60-day inspection sticker, after you get two new tires and a new exhaust pipe.
JULIE: Is that what's making the car so loud?
CAR GUY: Yep. And wow, that right, front tire is bad. I'm surprised I can't see the metal! Must've been a fun winter!
JULIE: Haha... actually....not so much!
CAR GUY: Haha.
JULIE: So, how much would that be?
CAR GUY: The tires and the exhaust pipe would be probably around $300. For 60 days.
JULIE: Do you think that's worth it if I can't fix the transmission?
CAR GUY: Well.... no, probably not. This car is just going to turn into a money pit. We had one guy with almost the exact same problems as you, same car, and he just left it here - didn't even drive it away.


yep. basically, here's the abbreviated version:


JULIE: Hey! Here's $48, tell me something bad!
CAR GUY: Your car sucks!


so that's the car story. i need a new one. and pretty much like, right now. because i can't drive around with an loud, uninspected car for too long.

i feel bad, because now i kind of resent the car. much like with my old laptop. like, it would break and break and break and break - but it always came back! i could always fix it. and then there's that one time where it can't be fixed. and it dies. and you lose all your Phantom Planet concert photos on the hard drive. yeah, still mad about that.

was it last summer that i thought my cell phone, laptop and car would all die? The Summer of Three. was that what i called it? that's what i should have called it.

instead, last summer brought the death of my cell phone.
early winter brought the death of my laptop.
late winter brought the death of my car.

and i have absolutely no idea what i'm going to do about the car.

really, like no idea. drive it to the death, i guess. i mean, if i hadn't gone to the car appointment yesterday, then i wouldn't know about all the problems. and i would keep driving it.

today i actually looked at the inspection sticker from 2010 and thought, "hm, is there any way i could change the '2010' to '2011?'"

i don't think there is. i'm not Veronica Mars.

ANYWAYS. that's the first bad part of the day.

and then i was strangely optimistic about work that night. excited, even, to get downstairs. something to take my mind of the car thing, perhaps.

i walk downstairs and open the office door. the FIRST thing my boss says to me when i walk in:

MY BOSS: Good luck.

and that just brought it right back down. within five minutes of being there, i had to go upstairs and tell the residents to stop horsing around and please stop yelling.

it was all downhill from there.

ok, so you know how in some episodes of dramatic television shows, it will start out at the end and then work it's way back? like, at the horrible part where something has blown up, someone has died, something is on fire, etc. and then you'll see like, five minutes of that and then the screen will go black and it will say like, "14 hours earlier." and you will think, "wow, how the hell does it get to be that bad?!?!"

that's how the episode of wednesday night would start out. and it would start with me, sitting in the office. one of the girls sitting in the armchair screaming at me, and the other one standing in the doorway screaming at me. basically obscenity after obscenity after more obscenities. nothing that i can write here.

i don't think i have ever been more insulted in my whole life. and BOY, did i tell them that. well, i told one of them that.

she was standing there, screaming at the top of her lungs how horrible i was. how horrible it was here. how i didn't care about her, or anybody else one tiny bit. how i pretend like i care, but i really don't.

i mean, i'm dumbing it down here. it was BAD. and so finally i cut her off and basically said something like,

JULIE: Ok, STOP. I am so fed up with this right now and I'm so insulted that you would speak to me like that. I never speak to you like that, even when I'm as angry as I am right now. I'm also insulted that you think I don't care about any of this, when I've worked with you, and supported you for all these months! And if you listen to yourself, it doesn't make sense - because all you do is say that nobody cares about you and nobody supports you, but you don't let anybody support you! I tried to talk this over with you earlier and you didn't want to hear any of it.
RESIDENT: (swearing swearing swearing bad words very bad words swearing swearing)
JULIE: Ok, that's enough. I'm done talking about this.

and then i turned away and she stormed off into the living room. and that was just one of them. then i had to deal with the other.

it was bad. i think it was worse than the horrible night on monday, but only because i was alone. on monday night, i had two other staff there for most of the night to help deal with it. but last night i was allll alone.

i was on the phone with my boss like, every 20 minutes. oh, it was so bad.

the whole thing probably lasted about 2 hours. and then i was all shaken up. like after a car accident or something. and even when i was back at home, i couldn't even sit down. i was so wound up and so shaken.

and i couldn't fall asleep. and once i finally did fall asleep at like, 2:45am, i had to wake up at 6:15am and deal with part 2.

i really don't like being screamed at.

but, i think through the whole thing i pretty much kept calm. i was raising my voice towards the end.

and now! i'm alone in this house.

and my music is still really loud. and i'm making good use of the two washers and two dryers now that i'm alone.

so, today went completely different than expected.

i was supposed to be in the operating room during a c-section today. for the girl who was screaming her brains out at me last night. and after that was all over, i called the other birth coach and basically said, "look, things have totally blown up over here, i don't think i can go to the appointment tomorrow. i think me and resident one need some time away from each other."

and she understood. and took her to the appointment early in the morning. i was very thankful for this.

i called her about 1pm to see how things were going. she called me back about 2pm and asked if i wanted to come up around 3pm. everything went fine.

so, i got dressed and ready to go and went up to the hospital at 3pm.

BABY. tiny, tiny baby. omg. beautiful tiny baby. and i held him for like, three hours.

no, i'm not kidding. i stayed at the hospital for about 4 hours. and i was holding him for MOST of the time. and i changed his diaper!

i got there at 3pm, and he was about 4 hours old. that's the youngest baby i've ever held. can you imagine being 4 hours old??? having to realize that you have to cry when you're hungry or when you want your diaper changed? and it hurts newborn babies to cry. to have to open your eyes and look at stuff. be undressed and cold for the first time ever. to have to be passed from person to person and checked out by doctor after doctor.

and all for the first time ever. EVER! it's so crazy.

and i totally had a crush on the pediatrician that came in to 'inspect' him. he passed inspection, unlike my car. the pediatrician had curly black hair and a pretty full beard. loves it. and when i said that i was a staff member from Hannah House he said, "oh, that's great!"

yep.

anyways. so, i guess the day turned out alright because i got to hold a little, little baby. and all you can do when you hold a newborn baby is just look at them. and fix their little hat. and rub their soft little cheek.

it's weird too, looking at the baby. because i remember when you couldn't even tell that this resident was pregnant. and now today i was holding her baby.

and i also couldn't stop thinking, "i'm so sorry you had to hear all that last night!" poor little guy. already exposed to R rated language.

oh, but he was beautiful.


and then i drove my car home. it's not totally loud all the time. mainly just at slow speeds. too bad i hate driving fast.

anyways. i guess that's all. it's friday. i'm burnt. feeling very burnt.

and i better have A FREAKING AWESOME second half of the year. that is all i am going to say. because so far, this half isn't so great. and it's really starting to get to me.


alright. i hope everyone else had a good week. and i hope everyone has a good weekend. the Crash Kings Roadtrip Weekend is still up in the air.

but i really am going to think positive about that one. please everyone send positive Crash Kings vibes into the universe.

even if it's the trip that breaks my car. it will still be worth it.


love you.

<3

not a good sign

it's not a good sign when the day majorly goes wrong BEFORE going into work.

FINAL RESULT OF THE INSPECTION: Rejected.

that's what it says on the form! it couldn't say something like,

FINAL RESULT OF THE INSPECTION: Sorry, but not today.

or,

FINAL RESULT OF THE INSPECTION: Try again next time!

something with a little bit of hope.

ah, but there's no hope for my car today.

anyways. can't talk about it right now. i just got off the phone with my dad. he called to see what was up.

folks, it's not looking good.

ONE of the many things wrong with the car are the two front tires. the guy was like,

CAR GUY: Wow, it must have been a fun winter for you! I'm surprised I can't see the metal showing through on those tires.

and i'm thinking, "yesterday i was on dry pavement and i didn't think the car was going to stop."

true story.

ANYWAYS. now it's time to go make my day worse and go to work.

WAIT. NO. STOP IT JULIE.

have a good attitude!!! maybe it will be a great night!

it's only wednesday? NO! it's only wednesday! so many great things can still happen before the week ends.

okay, i will make them happen.

but first i will go to work.


have a great night! and i will too!!!!!! DEAL!


<3

but it's only in her dream

OKAY.

in one hour i have my car inspection. worried and dreading are what i'm feeling right now about that. UGH. please let it just pass and i won't have to pay any extra money.

Ruby is sitting on my lap right now. like, not even laying down. she's just sitting. and every once in a while she'll lean her head back real far to look at me, and i kiss the top of her head. i love her so much.

i can't actually remember why i started this post. i thought i had something important to tell you.

i started watching The Hurt Locker last night. i haven't finished it yet. i thought so far it was okay. all those guys are horrible.

i feel like i need a haircut again. it's only been like, 2 months.

i'm working tonight 3:30-10pm. i think it's gonna suck. only because my boss sent me an email confirming that i would work tonight and she said, "it's been a rough morning. i'll fill you in later."

and whenever i hear that i immediately think, "oh why did i agree to work?"

but, if i got through Monday night. and i got through the night when i almost got punched in the face, then i an probably get through tonight.

TOMORROW will be the real test.

i will be in the operating room during a c-section. when did i ever think i'd be doing that in my life? um, never. how am i going to get through that? i don't know. it will be a tough day.

but hopefully CRASH KINGS this weekend. three times in four days. EPIC. it's weird though, thinking that tomorrow i will probably have this horribly emotional day that includes being there when a baby is born, and then this weekend i might be rocking my socks off at a concert.

life is strange, right?

apparently, Crash Kings are carting around an actual piano for these shows. i learned that via @crashkings twitter. i think it's Tony who does the tweeting. and he said that they were driving through the Rocky Mountains and getting around 8mpg because of the piano.

they start the JET tour on friday. in TORONTO!!!!!! all your Toronto readers - GET OUT THERE!

oh! here's something good:

i spent probably almost 40 minutes in the post office yesterday mailing two big boxes to British Columbia. one to my dad and one to my uncle. and the first time around i filled out the wrong customs forms for BOTH packages. so i had to go do everything again.

but!!!!! the ruggedly handsome postal worker was helping me out. and i hadn't seen him in a very long time. and that made me very happy. he's so funny and lovely. and so ruggedly handsome.

OK. i should go get ready to go to the car appointment. UUGGHHH i don't want to gooo.

my car hit 99,300 miles yesterday! that's exciting. do you think it will hit 100,000 by tuesday?? from (hopefully) driving to boston, then to new york, then to new jersey, back to boston, probably back up here, then back to boston and back up here. that sounds like 700 miles, right?

eh, i have no idea.

AH, okay. now i really have to go get ready. wish me luck. i transferred some money around in my bank accounts so that i have enough. oooohhhhh please let it be enough. i think something is wrong with the engine. and also the transmission. but the transmission thing has been forever. i think the engine thing is new.

ok. have a great day. i'll talk to you later!



<3, julie

greener seems to fall beneath your feet

okay today was a bad day. but i'm listening to Tally Hall right now and they are making me feel better.

i ended up working tonight 3:30 to 10pm. sure, why not!? i really expected it to be a quiet night.

go downstairs. check in with the staff.

i'm downstairs maybe 15 minutes and the screaming begins.

SCREAMING. FIGHTING. NAME-CALLING. DOOR SLAMMING. did i mention screaming? and lots of crying.

this lasted pretty much nonstop until around 6:30 or so. actually maybe more like 7. i don't know.

i was so frustrated i wanted to cry. like, if i hadn't pulled it together in 5 seconds, i would have burst into tears. instead, i bottled. and immediately began shaking. which, still hasn't stopped.

have i ever been that angry and frustrated? so much so that i started shaking? i can't remember. i'm questioning the night back in the fall that i almost got punched in the face. but, that may have been shaking out of plain fear.

i was SO ANGRY tonight. SO FRUSTRATED. it was horrible. it was horrible.


so, my boss called me at 12:30pm and asked if i would work tonight. i figured i really needed the money.

when i got to work, she told me that she had already been so frustrated and fed up by 12:30pm, after 4.5 hours of working, and she didn't think she could make it the rest of the night.

then, she called me again at the end of the night to check in to see how i was doing and she said to me (this is a quote):

BOSS: This was one of the worst days I have ever put in.


BAD. it was bad.

and i don't think the rest of the week will be too great either...

TUESDAY: staff meeting. hopefully not too bad.
WEDNESDAY: car appointment. probably spending a lot of money.
THURSDAY: dreading. dreading. dreading.
FRIDAY: we'll see.

SATURDAY: Crash Kings in New York?! maybe?! hopefully?!!?!
SUNDAY: Crash Kings in New Jersey!? HOPEFULLY!!!!!!!
MONDAY: spend either in Maine or New Hampshire. maybe?!
TUESDAY: Crash Kings in Boston?! MAYBE?!!?

this weekend has the possibility to ROCK SO FREAKING HARD. i've been in seriously awesome contact with the girl who i might Crash Kings Roadtrip with. IF the whole thing happens.

which, it's looking like it will.

AAHHHHHH CRASH KINGS THREE TIMES IN FOUR DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!

wow this weekend could totally rock. i just need to get there. oooooo i really hope it happens. reaaallyyyyyy reaallyyyyy hope.

this girl who i've been emailing, who will come with me this weekend if it all happens, sounds like the exact version of myself. it's like myself in another person.

we're creating these versions of how this weekend could go that include hanging out with the band every free second.

like, "well, this is our plan for food...unless we end up eating all our meals with the band."
or, "okay, this is our hotel plan... unless we end up staying with the band."
or, "we'll have to find stuff to do on sunday afternoon... but that's when maximum band hangout time could happen...."

so cool.


DEAR UNIVERSE,

please go the exact opposite of today and make everything good happen from now on.
ok thanks bye!

LOVE, JULIE


OH.

so, while we're on the subject of bad things happening in the world. (well, i guess this on a smaller scale of the bad things happening in the world...)

MATT WINTER is leaving Rooney.

it was announced last week. the day before my birthday. MATT WINTER. leaving. ROONEY.

oh, it was a sad day. i am sad. especially because i am totally in love with Matt Winter.

he's going to medical school to become a doctor. which, i guess is a great thing. he said it's something he's always wanted to do. yeah, that's great. but still sad.

and crazy that Kara and I saw Rooney on the last tour with all original members! AND that i got all their signatures on my Rooney shirt! including Matt's!

i guess in the celeb world you call them "autographs," not "signatures." geeze julie, pull it together.

oh, but i still remember standing there, shaking Matt Winter's hand and looking into his beautiful eyes. ooooo that was a really great moment. and he was wearing that icy blue shirt.

i just realized that i was tensing up while i have been typing. i had to take a relaxation moment.

anyways.

ok. i am really hungry and i think that is now contributing to my shakiness and headache. i'm going to go eat something and probably watch more 30 Rock. i had been having a good day before work because i was getting caught up on 30 Rock. soooooo funny.

i have The Hurt Locker here from netflix, but i don't think i can watch it tonight.


i'll talk to you again tomorrow. have a good tuesday.


<3