choking on the dust

feeling kind of lonely right now. just watched this Robert Pattinson movie called How to Be. it's this indie british comedy. but it was just kind of sad. and made me feel lonely. he really wanted to be a musician. and he worked this stupid job in a grocery store. and he got "fired" from his volunteering job at an adult care center. and his parents didn't really care about him. and his friends were the eccentric type. one was a womanizer and the other was kind of agoraphobic. and Robert Pattinson was just trying to be normal. and so he hires this canadian personal therapist to follow him around and try and make his life better.

i don't know. it was good, i guess. some parts were funny. mostly lonely, though.


so lately i've been finding myself stressed out because i can't stop thinking of what to get people for christmas. and it's weird. i've also been having a hard time falling asleep this week, and i just lie in bed making lists of people and what i'm getting them for christmas. it's annoying because it makes me stressed when i'm trying to sleep.

the past two nights it's taken me a long time to fall asleep. and last night i kept waking up. i woke up at 6:30am because it was raining so hard. it was pounding against my windows. and then Ruby Tuesday woke me up at 7:30am. she's been waking me up soooo much lately. and then the phone woke me up at 8:58am. and then i woke up at 11am because i could hear people talking outside.

now i'm happy because a Nick Lachey song just came on my itunes.

ugh i just can't wait to be home. i feel like even when i do nothing at my house, it's still more exciting than doing nothing in this house.

i kind of feel like watching 27 Dresses. but during the R.Pattz movie i had this urge to watch The Darjeeling Limited. and i almost shut off the movie. i think i'm just so excited for Mr. Fox.

WHICH, was the #1 thing on Entertainment Weekly's MUST LIST. things you MUST experience this week. NUMBER ONE. i'm so excited!!!!! can you tell????

today i watched a clip of an interview with Wes Anderson, Meryl Streep, Jason Schwartzman and Bill Murray. the full interview is out on monday. YOU BET your bottom dollar that i'll post it here. the clip was basically Meryl acting beautiful and laughing at Bill Murray's jokes while Jason and Wes sat there awkwardly. LOVES IT.

tonight during my check-in with Courtney, it was really funny. she was giving me a recap of the night at work in relation to how high her "irratated/annoyed meter" was. on a scale of 1-10, the highest it went was 9. it was great.

i don't know what else to say.

i didn't do anything today. and i don't have any plans for tomorrow.

i'm feeling really, really anxious about leaving Ruby Tuesday alone for next week. there will be someone here to feed her. but, she needs so much attention. oh i feel so guilty already.

just played some JoBros related games on the disney channel website. the "stellavator styling" game is pretty intense. i scored like, a 11207 or something. you only have 46 seconds to pick out outfits for all three of them!!! and the second round includes IRONING!!!!! and we're talking, shirts, pants, and shoes. Stella will text you and be like, "Quick! Jonas has to get ready for a RECORD RELEASE!!!" and then you'll pick out the appropriate clothes. or, "Hurry! Jonas will be late for THE MOVIES!!!!" or, "A HIGH SCHOOL DANCE!!" or, "A BALLGAME!!!" it was stressful.

but oh, the thought of dressing the Jonas brothers. just give em their three essentials: cardigans, vests, plaid shirts. throw in some tight pants and cowboy boots and they're done!


so, i've been noticing how thin my hair is. and it's really bumming me out. i really want to get my hair redone. everybody here has been going to the hairdresser and coming back with sexy hair.

aaah!!! i just read an article called, "7 Book Characters Hotter Than Edward Cullen." #2 was Laurie from Little Women. YES. and #3 was Gilbert from Anne of Green Gables. YES YES!!!!!!

hm. can you tell i'm bored?? i am. it's 2:31am. i feel tired. but i kind of know that as soon as i get into bed i won't fall asleep.

Sleep, those little slices of death; Oh how I loathe them.

Edgar Allan Poe.


maybe i'll go to the library this weekend. oh but it's so tiny in there. and it's so hard to find things. and they have nothing i want to read anyways. like, they have no books it's insane. i'll look for a book in the card catalog and they never have it. i have to find out about ordering things. interlibrary loan type thing.

it was so easy in college. it's much harder in the real world.

you can quote me on that. Julie Evans. here, i'll make it official:

it was so easy in college. it's much harder in the real world.

Julie Evans.

so, i'm pretty mad at myself for not watching Glee right along with the show. online. on Hulu. because the other night i really wanted to watch it. like, start watching it. but Hulu only has episodes 6-11. UGH!! and i tried searching for it online elsewhere, but it was not to be found. and i am upset because i wanted to spend the weekend watching 11 episodes of Glee.

i think i would love that show. Courtney told me the other night that i would love it. Dan wrote about it in his blog a while ago and i thought, "omg that show looks amazing." and then i meant to watch it, and meant to, and meant to, but never did.

that main girl on the show reminds me soooo much of Idina Menzel it's crazy. have i told you that before?? probs.

ugh! i want to watch that show. and i want to watch it with my mom. maybe i'll just buy it from iTunes.

anyways.

it's 3:03am. right now. ugh, that band 3oh!3. how much do i despise that band? a lot. i cannot STAND that song they sing. i don't know what it's called. it's just rude. and tasteless. dislike.

ok. now it's 3:12am. i keep getting distracted from blogging. i can hear the newspaper car outside. he's early tonight. last night he came at like, 2:30am.

it's weird. that newspaper guy.

know what i like? people who make sandwiches in the middle of the day. like, not lunch time. not dinner time. just like, whenever they want a sandwich. a great example of this is Paul Rudd in Clueless. at the end, when Cher realizes that she's in love with him. and he just goes into the kitchen and makes a sandwich. i love that part.

just like, "i'm hungry. oh, i think i'll make a sandwich." it's awesome.

and i don't think i can get any better than that. SO. i'll sign off for tonight. 3:18am.

i'll talk to you tomorrow. sorry this has been a lame post. it's okay if you check the 'lame' option below.

have a great saturday!!!!! hope you are doing something you love.


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