consider me destroyed

so, my computer is basically dead. not dead, but useless. NOTHING, nothing, except the internet is working. and i don't even know why that is working. it doesn't make sense. but, i am pretty thankful for it.

i can't open any programs. i can open "computer stuff" like my documents, etc. but, everything else. paint program. word. aim. itunes. alllll my anti virus programs. my dvd player. realplayer. NADA! everything is shot.

something must have gotten deleted or screwed up during the last virus invasion. something right must have gotten wronged. ya know?

and now! the best part is, when my good friend Windows Police Pro comes to visit me again, i won't be prepared. i'll be defenseless!

to quote Jordin Sparks, "i'm out here without a shield!"

why does this computer have to be like a battlefield?

today i just got so fed up with it. with EVERYTHING computer related. i have tried and tried and tried to save this computer tine after time after time. i have stayed up with it well into the night running virus scan after virus scan trying to make it better. i have upgraded memory when it was getting too slow. i have gotten it a hard drive when it died. new battery cord when it became frayed. replaced the motherboard when it was sick.

ok, so i never got it the cooling pad. i'm sorry. i meant to and meant to. i just didn't ever want to spend the $19.99 and I'M SORRY! okay, i'm sorry.

i'm just sad that this is the way it has to go. defeated by virus. broken and battered.

but, i am seriously puzzled as to why Firefox is opening. the link on the desktop is shot, so i have to open it by going to the start menu. but, that's no prob. i have no idea why that did not get destroyed in the recent attack.

so, it is a good thing i am picking up a zillion hours a week at work, because i will need a computer much sooner than later.

and - let me tell you - my next computer will be so freaking nice, it will put all other computers to shame. i will have the Titanic of computers. (meaning, greatness. not sinking.) ok, maybe i should say, 'i will have the Kate and Leo of computers.' i'm sorry, i think i deserve it. i don't feel that way very often.

1. i deserved to see Hanson the day my div 3 was due
2. i will deserve a few days off in the upcoming weeks
3. i deserve a nice computer after dealing with this one

and tonight, i watched an episode of Grey's Anatomy, and i heard a song that i liked. and i thought, "oh, i'll download it!" so, i looked up the song to find out what it was. and then went to go open iTunes to download it. oh yeah, itunes doesn't work. then, i went to open Frostwire (illegal downloading which i try to stay away from...). oh yeah, that doesn't work either. ok, so i'll find the song somewhere online and use my sound capture program to get it that way. hmm...that doesn't work either.

and earlier today i thought, "omg i have to update this playlist on my ipod!" but i can't, because again, i can't get into itunes!!!

it worked last night, yeah. but i'm not going to redownload it every time i want it to work. that'd be like, everyday.

UGH! so frustrating!!!

the problem it says is: [insert program name here].exe is not a valid Win32 application.

THAT'S the error message that i get for everything. and like the other night when i redownloaded itunes, i went to go install it and it was like, "what program should we use to open this file?" and i was like, "umm.....itunes?" and it worked.

but today, when i was trying to download a free dvd player (to get the VM screencaps) it said,

COMPUTER: What program should we use to open this file?
JULIE: Umm.....itunes.....?
COMPUTER: Nope, sorry.
JULIE: Ummm.....windows media player?
COMPUTER: Not this time.
JULIE: Realplayer?
COMPUTER: Try again!
JULIE: .........?
COMPUTER: You lose.

and i lost the game. my house was stormed with elephants and dinosaurs. just like in Jumanji. i don't think there were any dinosaurs in that movie. that's just what it felt like.

anyways. YOU are in luck because i can still blog. i guess that's all that matters. :)

so, currently, it's 3:23am. thursday morning. thursday i am working 1:30pm until 8am on friday. and then another day off!!!!!

today on Celebrity Baby Blog there was an article on Sarah Jane Morris, from the tv show Brothers and Sisters. more importantly, she is married to Ned, the drummer from Rooney. and they are expecting a baby (boy?) in January. and the article was all about how perfectly eco-friendly she is. it made me really jealous. her and Ned drive a grease car. i'm really jealous of that. she was on Jimmy Kimmel once and told this really funny story of her and Ned stealing vegetable oil from restaurants in the middle of the night.

anyways. my point is, their baby is due in January. and KARA AND I are going to see Rooney on 13 December. this makes me nervous. Dear Baby: PLEASE do not come before the concert!!! Maybe this is being selfish. BUT PLEASE, just stay in there where it's nice and warm and dark and better. And stay healthy until your due date. Ok, thanks. Bye.

also, she is beautiful. and so is Ned. and i love his curly hair.

ok.

3:30am. i should go to bed. but, i just have to get up in half an hour. is there a point? ugh, i don't know.

this baby has been destroying his bottles. at his 10pm feeding, he ate 2oz in like, less than 10 minutes. and i even said to his mom, "wow, he is killing that bottle!"

and then his mom was all concerned because she is worried that he won't be able to defend himself when he gets into fist fights. and so i said, "well, hopefully he will never be in a situation where he will need to fight back like that." and she looked at me like i had 4 heads and purple eyes.

i try my best.

that baby is so beautiful. he's got a full head of blonde hair. so cute. and i saw pictures tonight from his first bath.

ok, you know what i love about babies?? aside from like, most things. i love when they are sucking on pacifiers. it is the cutest thing. especially when they are asleep. and it starts to fall out of their mouths, and then they realize it, and it shoots back in. it's like, instant smile. it's so cute.

i can't imagine sucking on a pacifier. like, it's supposed to be so soothing. but i would think it would just be distracting. like, how can you focus on falling asleep when you also have to focus on keeping this thing in your mouth? i don't get it. my mom tells me that i never used a pacifier. i guess even as a baby i was confused about these things.

ok. 3:42am. maybe i should lie down for 10 minutes. is that smart?

this morning i went back to sleep at 7:45am. and i didn't shut off the phone, because i was technically still working until 8am. and then i woke up at 9:39 because someone called. and so i immediately got up and unplugged the cord. and then at 10:45 we had a fire drill.

OH i was not happy about that. i was sleeping. and i didn't like it even more because today was supposed to be my day off, but I STILL had to go outside and see everybody. in my pajamas and slippers, no less. it was the worst.

not that i totally care about being woken up. i mean, i was up all night working, they weren't. i have reason to sleep during the day. i just didn't want to see anybody! ugh that's the worst. i really need an invisibility cloak.

ugh i hate fire drills. and this one is sooooo effing loud. it's like a steamship is blowing it's horn right in one ear, while someone is holding a jackhammer up to the other. it's the worst.

and they never happen in the afternoon or evening. ALWAYS in the morning. ALWAYS while i'm sleeping.

ok. i have been complaining a lot in this entry. and i'm sure you don't want to listen to it.

it's 3:49am. i should feed Miss Tuesday before i go downstairs for a feeding.

i washed my hair again today and twisted it up into a bun. hopefully i will have sexy hair again on thursday.

i am taking the baby girls to their doctor's appointments in the afternoon. that's why i have to go into work early. Courtney is taking someone else to an appointment, and so is another staff.

3:51am. hopefully in an hour i will be in bed. unless he kills the bottle in 5 minutes again.

ok! hope you have a wonderful thursday!! 30 Rock is on tonight! set your tv recording devices! or, whatever. or, if you're like me, you'll have to suffer until friday when it's online!!! alright!

oh, i wanted to post this video. it's mainly for my mom. she loves it when unlikely animals take care of each other. in this case, it's a tiny dog and a cat that fall in love with each other. Darren posted it in his blog and i wanted to show you all.

ok! for real now, GOODNIGHT! one thousand times goodnight.


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