'now my furr has turned to skin and i've been quickly ushered in to a world that i confess, i do not know.'

Lately, I've been changing the background to my laptop so it says motivational things. Like, positive things, so I'll be inspired and in a good mood.

I found this website last night and was on it for like, an hour reading all the cutesy images. It's like, delightful little sayings and whatnots set against darling little images. I like the one that says, "when I get sad, I stop being sad and be awesome instead. TRUE STORY." I can mostly relate to that one.

So, I spent a lot of time on that website. Sometimes it made me sad. Sometimes it made me nervous. Sometimes it made me happy. I don't know. I think yesterday was just a melancholy day, or something.

I ended up changing my background image to a saying that says, "when life seems overwhelming, keep calm and carry on." I liked this one, because it pretty much relates to my overwhelming feeling that I've had for a while. Also, it says, "carry on," which is the title of my fave Crash Kings song. Is it my fave? I don't know. I go back and forth. '14 Arms' might be my fave. Or, 'Nonbeliever.' Ok now we're talking about Crash Kings. That happened pretty quickly.

ANYWAYS. I would say, go check out that site. It might make you sad, but it also might make you feel better about yourself, and that's always a good thing.

I talked about that for a long time. I don't know... I guess I feel like I need positive reinforcement in my life right now. I mean, I know that I'm a super awesome total hottie and everything. But, sometimes I just need to remind myself. And it's two different things when someone tells you you are a super awesome total hottie, and when you actually believe it. So, I'm trying to remind myself as much as possible. That way I'll never forget.

And, there have been some crap things that have happened in the past few months. But, there have also been some awesome things. And sometimes, the crap thing and the awesome thing are the same. TRUE STORY.

One thing is for sure: there has been a SEVERE LACK of rockstars in my life recently. It's been almost THREE MONTHS since I've seen Crash Kings. And even longer since I've seen River City Extension, which makes me even more sad.

BUT, River City is playing a show at The Space the day after my birthday!! 26 February! And I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY hope that I can go. It's my ONE birthday wish.

Anyways. Let's get to the awesome.

On MONDAY, as in, the day after tomorrow, Kara and I are driving to TORONTO. That's right - CANADA!!! And then we're flying out to Vancouver Island for two weeks to visit our wonderful father and the rest of our awesome Canadian family. It's been WAY TOO LONG since we've seen everyone out there. Like, I think it was between my 2nd and 3rd year in college the last time I saw them. Not my dad, he was here over the summer. But, it's still a long time. The longest I've ever gone without seeing my dad. So, that makes me sad.

But - EXCITED!!!!! Canadian Adventures are the best kind. I'm very excited. Also excited about driving to Toronto with Kara. Driving across New York state = AWESOME! Actually, no. Driving across New York state is kind of lame. But, I'm excited for the car trip.

So, that's the big news, I guess. Vacation.

(My birthday is in less than a month, fyi.)

Oscars are coming up. I'm pretty excited. I'm rooting for Christian Bale. ALL THE FREAKING WAY. I saw 'The Fighter' last weekend and loved it. Loved it way more than I expected to. It was one of the few movies that I was sad when it ended, because I just wanted to keep watching. But, Christian Bale was like, unbelievable. So, so freaking good. Right from the very first second he was on screen, and right up until the very last second of the movie - he was unstoppable.

And I mean, Christian Bale was in Little Women. PLUS, one of my all-time favorite movies, Velvet Goldmine. Lots of sexy hottness in that one. I read once that Christian Bale tries to do a different accent for each movie he's in. So, that's cool, also.

Oscars are 27 February this year. Set your calendars.

Actually, that doesn't make sense. Set your.... alarms? I don't know. MARK your calendars. That's what I was trying to get to.

Alright. Also saw The Social Network finally. Loved it. Facebook, man. Taking over the world.

I remember when I FIRST joined Facebook. Back in the Fall of 2004. Only for colleges. Not every college was registered with it yet. And then it was such a big deal when one of your friend's colleges joined Facebook, because then you could finally be their friend.

And I remember that me and David were trying to see which one of us could go the longest without joining. He won. He's on Facebook now too. Along with the rest of the world.

So, I loved the movie because it was a good movie. But, also because I remember when it was becoming popular and people started going crazy over it. So, that's cool.

Also - Jesse Eisenberg. Is he one of the people that I mentioned in my 'I would marry them in two seconds' series? Because, I would marry Jesse Eisenberg in two seconds.

1. Jason Schwartzman
2. Leo DiCaprio
3. Jesse Eisenberg

I feel like number 3 changes the most frequent. 1 and 2 have stayed the same for many, many years now. But, number 3 is currently Jesse's space. Even though he's technically Kara's boyfriend.

Watched Zombieland the other night. Missed the part with the Crash Kings song. Still a great movie.

Ok. I have to go take on the day right now. Shower and clean the bathroom. I'll talk to you later!! Have a great weekend!





I don't know if you can see
The changes that have come over me
In these last few days I've been afraid
That I might drift away
I've been telling old stories, singing songs
That make me think about where I've come from
That's the reason why I seem
So far away today